Great line

Ausy tv is rubbish. If you think NZ tv is bad don't watch it here. It feels like I'm watching crappy sunday afternoon tv and then realise it's prime time and they just have nothing good to watch. Which means what I'm about to say even more amazing! Just heard a great line on an ad for a tv program that's starting soon:

"Stop thinking I'm a survivor and start thinking I'm a success!"

How great is that? Well it is to me. I'm always saying: look at what I've done considering... when I should just be saying: look at what I've done.

PS the Gold Coast is awful. I've never seen so many women with plastic surgery in my life and I'm not joking. Every thing is fake here, boobs, face's, tans, people. I think I'm hideous and fat enough as it is without having to compete with people who's beauty is literally fake! I've met some fantastic people but I realised tonight that none of them are from the Gold Coast. And any I have met are awful! And I'm not exaggerating.

I'm so tired of struggling, not having enough money, not having people who have known me more than a month, not having my family around, not having rokocoko, of being let down by people, not having a job I enjoy and having to watch my friends get my perfect jobs at first go. Its awful to get into the real world and realise it really is as bad as it looks. And I'm tired of nobody hugging me!

But Kaija will be here next tuesday and wednesday and I honestly can't wait. I can't wait to see her and I possibly will cry at the airport when I see her (maybe this will be because its 6.30 am and I've just spent 2 hours getting there from my home).

Ok I'll leave it on that note. Can't wait to see Kaija!!!

Lots of photos to look at I know but I have been slack with putting up pictures and thought this would be an easy way to show everyone a bit of what I've been up to. These last pictures are from a party we had at Raina's apartment for Julz's birthday. Pretty much all of us didn't know each other until about 3 weeks ago which just makes how much fun we had even more impressive!

The awesome Pavlova I made

Seaworld, Gold Coast - 26 Jan 08

This is a Dugong. I'd never even heard of it!

Ana (my flatmate), Tracey, Raina, Me and Kelly (all met through working at Contact 1-2-1)

The dolphin show that was truly amazing! Also highly recommend the Sea Lion show and basically the whole of sea world. Highlight though would still be the polar bear.

My favourite pictures from our Asia Trip

The beach where we stayed in Baan Kruit, Thailand

The pool that looked out to the sea in Baan Kruit, Thailand

Sunset at Angkor Wat, Cambodia

The worlds biggest man made moat at Angkor Wat, Cambodia

The trees that grow out of the buildings at Ta Phrom, Angkor Wat, Cambodia

I have a thing for flowers...

Here's some pictures I took in Thailand and Cambodia:

The Year in Review

This post is one I’ve been thinking about writing for a long time. Its probably gonna be all over the place and it won’t be all happy or all sad. Its just me…thinking out loud about the year that was 07 and how it has been for me.

Reflecting on my year has been something I’ve done since I was 13. On my thirteenth birthday my brother and his girlfriend of the time gave me a journal and I’ve kept one ever since. Its great to look back and read where I was at and what I was doing over the last 11 years. Its scary too and Thank God for people growing up and changing!!! And its important to me to analyze the year and learn from it.

Anyways 2007 was a massive year for me. Definitely a year of firsts. Some good and some bad. There’s really no other way of describing it. No, I guess there is…long, rough maybe. My gut feeling when I think of it is sadness. But then when I think about the good firsts I am so proud of myself. So proud that I made it through and not just made it…rather I did well. All my life I have considered myself not quite cool enough. Especially in high school. Its held me back in so many ways, I’m sure there’s amazing people I don’t know and things I haven’t tried because of it. Particularly in relation to sport at school I hardly ever tried new things because I always felt I wasn’t cool enough and so wouldn’t be any good. Examples of this would be snowboarding and surfing. Sports that have a very close relationship to cool people! But this year I’ve learnt both. At the beginning of 07 I went to Bondi for a weekend with Lilly and we spent a day learning how to surf. And it was amazing and so much fun and we weren’t that bad! And then in July Kaija, Carissa and I went up to Mount Hutt and spent a day learning how to snowboard. And again it was a million times more fun then I had hoped it would be and we weren’t the worst in the group! And I got another tattoo which I had wanted to get for years as it represented my family and they are so important to me.

And I finished my degree and I went to Thailand and Cambodia and moved to Australia (not a first but feels like it!!). And I made new friends (Nikki, Kaija’s group: the girl and the boy twins, barty, nashie) and I lost some and found old ones (thank you facebook).

But with good must come bad. May particular was a very tough month for our family. My brother had a major accident at work, our cat died, Sharyn got a B and I overdosed. These were first for our family. Firsts that none of us knew how to cope with. But we did and we’re getting better now. I think we all learnt an awful lot though.

And in November a girl I went to school with passed away. This was a first for me, having someone who I was friends with dying. My main memory of her from school is my wishing I was her. Of all the girls at high school she was the one I would most want to be. She was beautiful, funny, smart, fantastic at every sport, everyone liked her and she never let anyone walk over her. If she didn’t like something she’d say so. She was who I wanted to be. And now she’s gone and she leaves behind a beautiful little boy and lots of people who miss her more than they know how to say. I’m listening to the song by Sarah MacLachlan called Arms of the Angels that Jo sang at the funeral. And last night I accidently came across Time of Your Life by Green Day on my friends Ipod and Michael Jackson, You Are Not Alone will never be the same for me because that was the song that was played as she was carried out. I know its clichéd but she really will be sadly missed and never forgotten.

But now it’s 2008 and that brings with it a whole new set of challenges and experiences that I still don’t know about. New things, new places, new people, new feelings. This post feels a tiny bit clichéd but its not meant to be. And maybe if it's something I've been thinking about then others have too. So maybe we all do things this year that frighten us and grow us and may we get to 09 bigger better faster stronger. And may we all start blogging about it! Come on! Deb is fantastic with her blogging and maybe new years resolutions for you all should be to blog!

Jo xx

My apartment on the Gold Coast

I was going to email mum and dad some pictures of my new place but then realised Shaz and Deb etc might be interested too and so I thought where better to put photos than my blog. Just another fantastic use me thinks! And then Deb quietly suggested via the comments section of my last blog that perhaps it was time to do a new post. And its Sunday night and I'm a tiny bit bored so what better thing is there to do then show off the awesome place I'm living. So here goes:

This is my bedroom:

Walk in wardrobe and en suite beside my balcony. (love my photos like this too):

The main area, its a lot bigger than it looks and as you can see it was really cloudy so the view doesn't look very nice!!:

And last but not least I'd like to show you the gorgeous tiny wee baby gecko I found in my room yesterday. His name is Mr T (but feel free to make other suggestions) and I put the lid beside him so you can see how really really tiny he is: