Thursday, October 25, 2012

Baby Bill of Rights

Talk to me
Sing, hum, babble or even read the funnies to me! I don’t know exactly what you’re saying, but I need to hear you. And I do know what you mean, even if I may not know words. Like your voice tones mean “I love you’. Or when you yell, I hear “you’re a pest!” Unless you communicate with me how can learn? I learn from you.
Hold me

Everything is so big and new to me I don’t understand where I am. Or who I am. And I get scared. But when you hold me I feel better. Your warmth warms me. Your breath and heartbeat make me feel I belong. Belong here. Belong to you.
Answer my cry
I don’t cry to get you upset. Or to get you mad. I cry because I can’t tell you how I feel any other way. Maybe I’m cold…or wet…or hungry…or scared and lonely. Answer my cries. You’ll soon know what each one means. You wont spoil me. You’ll help me to be a better baby…and to make you happier, too.
Love me
Like me. Love me just as I am. Don’t expect me to do what I can’t do. Like being toilet-trained. My muscles aren’t ready yet. I know I’m messy. But I’m growing. Overlook my baby weakness. You’re the most important person in my world. I can’t make it without you. So get to know me. Have fun with me. And love me…just as I am.

Our son has arrived!

Knox Kautu ki te Rangi arrived at 3.19pm on Tuesday 25th September 2012. He weighed in at 6 lb 13 oz and 50 cm long. 

Knox is just the most amazing little guy. He's a whole month old today and we just don't know where that last month has gone! He got back to his birth weight this week - it took him a while but he got there in the end!

His names each have very special meanings:

Knox - my mums maiden name
Kautu ki te Rangi - this is the name of the paddle from Tahu's waka that came from Rarotonga. It also means "a gift from above". 
Hikuroa - Tahus mums last name. We have taken this name too. 

I could write for hours on how amazing he is, on how much we love him, but I won't cos I think you can imagine it! Instead I think how I felt when he was born explains it the best. I had heard a lot about the overwhelming feeling of love that a lot of people get but I didn't have that. For me it was like I realised the love that had always been there. All I could think was "Oh he's here". And it was like the complete and total love I felt wasn't new, it wasn't something I had to learn, it was something that had just always been there. It was like him being born turned the light on and I could see what I had known (felt) was always there. 

And despite what I had been told by numerous people, my loving Knox doesn't make me love Tahu or Roko any less. It's a different love. I love them all so much and one doesn't take from the other. 

Ok enough with the soppy stuff. For now. There's be more I'm sure!