Website of the Week

More than just a week cos it's awesome. New ones every day!!

www.crickler.com/crickler.html

I recommend doing the Crossword one and the Vocab one cos the news one is not so easy for us kiwis.

I can't be bothered explaining it so you can read the help section for how to do it.

Mum and Dad

I still don't know if I will write about yesterday so while I think about it I will write about why I wouldn't want anyone else to be my Mum and Dad (in no particular order).

1. When the civil union bill came out you let me talk about how I felt about it and you restored my faith in christians by agreeing with me.

2. When it comes to boys you let me choose and you support me and believe in me.

3. You like my piercings. Is like too strong? You support my choice to have them.

4. You like how I dress. Is like too strong again? When I wear 3/4s and heels you think I look lovely even though it's very fashionable and parents aren't meant to like the latest fashions!

5. When we talked about abortion recently I nearly cried because of how wonderful you were to listen to me and again support my views. It was amazing to me that you said you would support me no matter what choices I make in life. Especially in this area where I honestly believe if I had one I would lose 95% of my friends. That you would still be there and love me and even understand it is more than I can believe.

6. Mum: Yesterday when I rang you crying you listened to me for so long and that you wanted me to come home for the night.

7. You read my blogs and comment on them.

8. Dad: You offer to send out Tony Soprano for me.

9. You are supportive of me in my choice to not always attend church. You let me make the choice to have and to work on my internal faith instead of trying to get me to have an external faith.

10. Dad: You steal my cds because you like listening to them (not because you don't want me to play them anymore!!)

There's so much more but I think that will do for now. Don't let it go to your heads mum and dad. Just thought I should say why you are so cool.

I have a dream...

Actually I had a dream. A while ago. But I'll go into that soon.

My delay at blogging has not been because I am not doing it. It's cos I'm very busy and important (Sharyn!!!). No honestly I am. Yesterday day I completed not 1, not 2 but 3 (!!!) assignments. Such a good feeling. Part of doing that also meant I finished a class. No more IG600 for Jo! Didn't I do well!!! (Thanks Bruce Forsythe for that very appropriate saying).

So this dream. It was really funny and yet painfully sad at the same time. For days afterwards I cried. Cried when I thought about it. Cried when I tried to explain it to mum. I'm such a girl sometimes!

The Funny Part: Heaven is a shopping mall. Yip no gold paths, no angels in big dress playing harps. It's a shopping mall. With a hairdressers and crappy elevator music playing.

The Sad Side: I was going there and had to say goodbye to everyone.

So in this dream I find out that I have 5 minutes before I die. Not die but leave this earth and go to heaven. Before that 5 minutes start I can go to this place and see what it's like. And Lilly can come with me to see it. So we walk through these sliding doors and it's a mall. A shopping mall. And it's not too cold or too hot so we decide it's heaven and not hell. Good news is I'm going to heaven and it's a shopping mall.

But then I have to leave and come back and say goodbye. All I know is I have to ring Mum & Dad and Jared. I figure Mum & Dad can say my goodbyes for me and I have to ring Jared to explain it to him so he'll understand why I'm leaving/dying. And Lil. I have to say goodbye to her. And I'm happy that she's there cos there's no one else I want to spend my last 5 minutes with.

We're walking along (and this is the part that makes me cry) and the only thing I can say to her is "I am so honored that you chose to be my friend in this life". Even now I can feel how deeply I felt that it is such an honor that she picked me to be her best friend. That she chose me to spend the first 21 years with.

I'm not sure if I've got my point across. It's hard to write how vivid that dream was.

Blogging

What is the point of blogging? What's the point of having people comment on my blogs?

Recently blogging has become the in thing. For a while before that I had been considering getting one just so I could write the stuff I feel somewhere other than a journal. I wasn't going to tell anyone I know about it cos that isn't the point of blogging to me but then I moved out of home and I figured my family and friends might like to keep up with where I'm at.

So I have my blog and I have allowed other people to view it. But what about the comments thing. Are they there so people can say what they think or so they can agree or disagree or are they there for no reason? And if people have the ability to comment on my blog should I take it personally or just as their views?

I really don't know the answers to these questions. I write what I feel or whatever and if people comment and they are rude or harsh about it (yes paul I'm talking about you) I take it personally. I don't expect people to agree with me. By now I have learnt that how I feel is almost always different from everyone else. But I do expect there to be some respect for how I feel.

If what I feel offends people then I won't blog. There's no point to it and you have missed my point.

Good things so far about flatting

1. My flatmates are lovely. I can talk to them and they can talk to me. They don't mind that I'm "religious" and they let me moan when I'm sick. Also they're gutted when I can't go do something with them.

2. I can eat if and when I want. (I do miss your cooking mum) but it's also fun to cook for myself. Made the worlds BEST indian the other night. Chicken and Pumpkin Masala. Was so good I even had the left overs for lunch the next day.

3. Wednesday night is pizza night - Pizza Hut 2 slabs for $10.

4. My neighbours. Ok one imparticular. He goes to tec as well but he's a rec student so me and Kate immediately get cool status. Think 3rd form at school and a 7th former talks to you. He asked me this morning "how's life on the other side of the fence". Got to love thy neighbours!!!

5. We have a grandstand. If you don't know what I mean think a row of couches with a row behind of desks and then couches on top of those desks. Can't visualise it? Just know that it's cool.

6. Every night is like going to a party. There's 8-10 of us most nights and trust me this isn't a bad thing.

7. Watching Home and Away with the boys. Yes the boys. They like it more then us girls!

8. Dereks brownies....think hot perfect chocolate cake with m&ms. Trust me it's heaven!!!

9. Getting my nails done for free by an award winning nail technician. Yes that's right. (Raewyn won Nail Technician of the Year last night. Very exciting.)

I think that's enough for now...to be continued I'm sure!

Rainy Mondays

It's monday. I am sick. Missed class this morning cos I thought sleeping was more important. I did however wake up at 5am and didn't get back to sleep till 6.30am. Not a complete waste of time. I watched a gardening program and learnt all about the 4 ways of growing grass. hmmm...my life is too exciting. oh and I watched the news and attempted to watch Benny Hinn. Attempted. He's too much for me at 5.30am!!

Can I just say I love my flatmates? they're so lovely too me. They think I'm awesome too... Just give them time! They'll soon learn the truth! Some quotes from them:

"I can tell you anything cos you're so honest"
"It's not a party without you"
"You're the bomb"

Better do some class work...

Trading Spouses

This is quite full on for my first blog but it has to be said. I have to say it.

I watched this program last night. Not too sure why I did. I think it was cos I didn't want to go to sleep but also didn't want to watch 20/20.

Last night's episode was a jewish woman swapping with a christian woman. seems easy enough. but this christian woman. man she annoyed me. she sat the kids (teenage girls) down and got a chocolate bar and did the sex talk with them. "Each person you sleep with is like taking a bite out of this bar. If you sleep with lots of people when it gets to your husband you've got nothing left to give him". But that's so wrong! What's she actually teaching these girls? that all we have to give to our husbands is sex. That if I sleep with someone and then when it comes to marrying someone else I have nothing to give him. that's rubbish. I'm a cool person! I have lots to give. I'm funny and cool and creative and I like who I am. Just ask my mum. I'm cool. He's lucky to have me choose him (and only him) to love for the rest of my life. Just cos I may have loved someone else before him doesn't mean I have nothing left to give him. There is so much more to me and what I have to give to a marraige then sex.

Am I wrong here? Am I overreacting? yes most likely but it had to be said.

For my mum

So mum this is for you. A blog as you requested.

But it's also for everyone else that I never see anymore. It's my fault I know. Shouldn't have moved so out of everyones way. But now you can read what I'm doing/thinking.

Welcome to my world.